Sunday, March 20, 2005
Exam week
This week exam , study week... slack like 1 kind... I didnt study. Cos i'm real depress , depress abt her. I've got her msg this week. but apparently she really had change. well i guess with new class mate she had really change. Plp change as their emvironment does, only me this tortise wont change still stay there as wat i was, looking at plp's back view. She said she not living gd, but seem to me very gd. Jus stress, if she is wat i am now. Her stress is nothing compared to mine. i don like wat she is now, the 1 i love was wat she was in the past. Sweet, loving , lame, talkative. I knw who had change her, and i whoever is with her will be change too. I hAte to admit it, but i mus. I've lost her, I still love her n i miss her... I cried 4 her once again , weak guy am i? yes i am. I cried once only for her 2 yrs ago for quareling with her, for being a fool to don give in... this time i cried twice but for her being not she was any more n also not having a happy life... I wonder if tat day i had done wat i suppose to do n we were together will she be in this state now? It was my 1st time holding some1 hand apparently i was nervous and being a coward not saying the magical words... I'm sorry but would sorry does anything? no it wont... I'm lost real lost...
I miss her,
i lost her,
i luv her...
but she is not here anymore...
i 'll be waiting for e day
she may come back...
I miss the chance then ...
n i'll shall tell u now ...
I Love u...
Bye J...
To J, My gal that wont be replace by any1 else in my heart.
Posted by Alan Chan at 4:32 PM